Babies' First Christmas

The Haps
Listening to: The Django soundtrack with music by Luis Bacalov. Such a cool movie.


They were so excited to see
Santa that they passed right out.
We're getting up to six hours of sleep in a row now. So we're still awfully tired, but we're doing better all the time.


The girls are seven weeks old today. They're very healthy as far as we can tell. They fuss a lot, and I worry about where all their gassiness comes from. But maybe that's normal.


It's Tara I'm more concerned about. She's going to see a neurologist this week to try and find out why she's still dizzy so often. She's able to drive a car now, but we need her totally healthy!


We get to enjoy Christmas by ourselves this weekend, just the four of us, and we're pretty happy about it. Tara's family, among others, will be visiting us the following week.


Thoughts
No one ever told me how much effort a husband might need to make in order to love his family in the first weeks after childbirth. Maybe more effort is required for parents of twins. My wife is still the wonderful lady I married, but lack of sleep and frequent baby-screaming is hard on a family. We've had lots of support from family and friends, including plenty of prayer, and I believe that's the only way we've gotten through this. If not for our faith, I fear how much worse it could have been. I believe the darkest days are behind us now, though, thank God!


Today's Scripture
Romans 6:1-14 (NKJV)


Key verse: (3) "...Do you not know that that as many of us as were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into His death?"


Reflection
Funny that this point that Paul brought to the Romans' attention is still not emphasized that much in our churches today. I think most of our church members understand that when we come to Christ, we leave our old ways of doing things behind and allow Him to give us new life. But how often do we truly associate ourselves with His death? Do I fully realize that my old self was crucified with Him? As Paul told the Galatians in a parallel passage, "I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me" (Galatians 2:20). 


And in this chapter in Romans, he says that "we have been united together in the likeness of His death" (verse 5) and "our old man was crucified with Him" (verse 6). Why? So that we'll "be in the likeness of His resurrection" (verse 5) and "that we should no longer be slaves of sin" (verse 6)!


I was discussing this chapter of Romans with some friends recently. We were trying to figure out what was most important to Paul when he was trying to explain these somewhat difficult concepts to his audience. Why was it important to him that we understand that we were baptized into Christ's death? I think it's because he wanted us to realize how much lies in store for us if we'll only shake off the shackles of our old life of sin. "Those who are Christ's have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires," he told the Galatians (5:24). I think what Christ wants for us is what Paul tells us in Galatians 5:1: "Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free." To do this, we must "not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage." Apparently getting entangled is easy to do. Have you experienced this?


But why is it so easy? If we have indeed been crucified with Him and baptized into His death, why should someone even need to tell us to "not let sin reign in your mortal body" (Romans 6:12) and to "cast off the works of darkness" (Romans 13:12)? Why do we even need all the encouragement the New Testament letters give us if our old selves are dead and we've been given new life in Christ?


For one thing, as long as we are in the world, we are surrounded by lies. Paul told Timothy that "some will depart from the faith, giving heed to deceiving spirits and doctrines of demons, speaking lies in hypocrisy" (1 Timothy 4:1-2). And as Paul tells us later in Romans 6, our human flesh is still weak, still waiting for the Resurrection of the Saints. "I speak in human terms because of the weakness of your flesh," he says (verse 19).


As a husband and father who dearly loves his family, I find that I need to remind myself of my role and that I need to actively show them love every day. It's not something that always comes naturally, even though I always love them deep in my heart. Similarly, Paul needs to remind us that we who have died with Christ have been freed from sin (verse 7). We need his reminder to "reckon yourselves to be dead indeed to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus our Lord (verse 11)." We need it because it doesn't come naturally, even for us who have been crucified with him. It's like we need to remind ourselves that we came back from the dead with Him!


I like that word "reckon". Sure it makes me think of cowboys in the movies, but in this context it means to "think of yourself as", to "consider yourself". Paul is telling us to think of ourselves as what we really are—dead to sin and alive in Christ! We're still trapped in these dying bodies with their old habits, but we have new life inside. It's easy to forget somehow, but we need to remember it!


Prayer
Lord, as I am surrounded by lies and so easily entangled, please remind me each day of who I am—a child adopted by You, crucified with Your Son and made alive again with Him in His resurrection. Thank you for the Gospel and all that it means and provides. May I take it with me everywhere I go. Thank you for the gift of Your Son. In His mighty name I pray.


Final Thoughts
I can't get over how much He's blessed me. So it's amazing how easily I can feel sorry for myself! In fact, it's sinful. He's given me everything, and every time I need something, I ask and receive. Praise God from whom all blessings flow, and may He forgive me when I show myself needless, senseless pity. Things are getting better every day, and now I can just look back and remember how hard it was and how much easier it is now! What a gift!


Merry Christmas!

Vacation Nearly Over

The Haps
"I heard a secret!"
"Oh, do tell, dahling!"
The girls are 27 days old already! Tara's folks were here for a while, then we had a week to ourselves, and then my folks were here for a few days over the holiday. Now we're enjoying lots of football and rest before I finally return to work. We've been well cared for by family and friends.

Thoughts
It didn't take long for me to start dreaming about our girls, but so far I always dream about one baby, a nameless, shapeless form that seems to be a combination of Abbey and Neave. And each dream typically involves something going wrong, such as accidentally leaving the baby in the car, so I wonder if this dream baby blob just represents the burden of being a father. Of course I love them like crazy, but it is a burden some days! I'm afraid my days of looking eight years younger than my actual age may soon be ending with all the stress they're providing.

Today's Scripture
Romans 5:1-11 (NKJV)

Key verse: (10) "For if when we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more, having been reconciled, we shall be saved by His life."

Reflection
There's a lot of information and explanation here, and much on which to reflect! I noticed that Paul spends some time explaining what our justification, by faith in Christ's sacrifice on the cross, means for us. That's very important for the Jews in Rome he's writing to as well as for us Gentile believers today. Reconciliation to God the Father is every bit as relevant for us as it was for them.

Paul lists five things that we acquire through justification by faith. The first is "peace with God" (verse 1), which is not something to take for granted. Throughout all the pages and pages of the Old Testament, there is very little peace except during Solomon's reign (1 Chronicles 22:9). Even when God is right there among His people, they often find themselves in rebellion and, therefore, trouble. Despite all God's revelations to them of what it takes to please Him, they are never able to live up to His standards due to their sinful natures. Even the heroes of the Old Testament are susceptible to sin. God continually brings strife into the lives of His people in order to chastise them and bring them to repentance. Peace with God was always something to be attained in the Old Testament, and it was not really possible until Christ came (Acts 10:36) and gave himself up for us by shedding His blood.

The second thing Paul says we get with our justification is "access by faith into this grace in which we stand" (verse 2).  Because our faith in Jesus justifies us, we have access to God's grace. I think that means that God not only tolerates us now, but that He also seeks out the best for us, wanting to bless us as much as we'll let Him (Matthew 7:11). When He looks at someone who loves Jesus and who believes in Him, God remembers the work of grace that Jesus accomplished on the cross and receives us with all the love He has for His precious Son.

Thirdly, Paul says "we rejoice in hope of the glory of God" (verse 2). Because we are justified by God through Christ, we can have great joy and much hope. Glory is promised to those who are called His own (Romans 2:10), and in the end, the glory is all God's (2 Corinthians 1:20).

Paul says "we also glory in tribulations" (verse 3) because we've been justified. And why not? "If God is for us, who can be against us?" (Romans 8:31). If I am made righteous by His Son and am now as justified as His Son, how can I let any calamity discourage me from continuing on this path with God? How could I ever turn away? If Job could praise the Lord through his tribulations, knowing nothing of the cross of Christ, how much more can I live a life of praise and worship when times are tough, knowing all the Lord has done and all He's promised to do?

Finally, skipping ahead, Paul says that "having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from wrath through Him" (verse 9). The nation of Israel knew a lot about God's wrath. Until Christ, their hope was in their sacrifices and in keeping God's Law. There are many different ideas today about what form God's wrath takes for people living now, whether it's here in this life or in the afterlife. Maybe it's some of both. Whatever it is, we know that God's anger is fierce against those who treat the death of His Son as nothing (2 Thessalonians 1:8-9). God has invited us to His wedding feast, and his wrath is hot against those who refuse His invitation, treat his messengers shamefully or show up dressed inappropriately (Matthew 22:2-13).

Fortunately, as our key verse (10) tells us, while Jesus' death restores our relationship with the Father, His life saves us from all of God's wrath. As long as Christ lives, He stands in the gap for us, praying for us (Romans 8:34) and looking out for our best as His adopted brothers and sisters (Romans 8:14). He's not like the older brother in Jesus' story who resented the father's forgiveness and grace for the younger brother who strayed (Luke 15:29-30). Jesus went out and found us, like lost sheep (Luke 15:4-6), and brought us into a relationship with His Father by dying and coming back to life. For all who believe in Him, we are being saved by Him. I can't imagine better news than that.

Prayer
Lord, thank you so much for all your blessings and all your promises. Thank you for my wonderful children. May I always remember the miracle and gift that they are. Thank you for Tara, the best wife and mother I've ever seen. You are truly good.

Final Thoughts
I'm a little concerned about the coming weeks. Starting Monday, Tara will be outnumbered by our kids for the first time while I go back to work. We're not even sure if she'll be able to drive a car because of the vertigo and visual disturbances she's been living with for weeks now. We'd appreciate your continued prayers.

Two Weeks In!

The Haps
Best picture I ever took, by far
Today is our babies' two-week, um, -versary. I think we did good! Neave has a real temper, ever since her first moments, and she's been impressing us with how loudly she can scream over the smallest annoyance, such as dropping her pacifier every half-minute or so. We're figuring this whole thing out. Their grandparents went home yesterday, so we're on our own as a four-person household now. I'm at home for the next two weeks, and my folks will be here for Thanksgiving.


Abbey had some health issues, mostly jaundice, but she seems to be all better now. Tara's health has been of greater concern, with pre-eclampsia and high blood pressure that seem to have brought on a weird kind of vertigo and disturbed vision. The vision problem seems to be her only issue now, but she won't be able to drive a car until it gets better.


That's about all that's going on right now. We finally sold an album, so we are $7.50 richer after ReverbNation took their cut. The kid who bought it is actually listening to it as I write this, and I hope he feels he got his money's worth.


Thoughts
I've confessed to a few people that I'm already having to deal with some anger issues in relation to screaming babies. I was difficult to live with, myself, starting about the sixth hour of Tara's 22-hour labor, and I didn't really get my attitude back into shape until a week ago. That first week was super tough, but I've dealt with myself and with the Lord, and, with the help of my incredible wife, I'm ready to be the father I've always dreamt I could be.


Today's Scripture
Romans 4:9-25 (NKJV)


Key verses: (20-22) "He did not waver at the promise of God through unbelief, but was strengthened in faith, giving glory to God, and being fully convinced that what He had promised He was also able to perform. And therefore 'it was accounted to him for righteousness.'"


Reflection
I had forgotten that Paul spends this whole section explaining what Genesis 15:6 means when it says that God accounted Abraham's belief to him for righteousness. I'm so glad he did. He explained it for all those new Jewish believers who were brought up believing that their circumcision as God's chosen people, Israel, was what made them right with God, along with all the animal sacrifices required by Jewish law. But this explanation also helps me, as a Gentile believer in the 21st century, to understand what Jesus did and that His sacrifice allows me to be saved by faith.


The key verses above describe Abraham's faith in detail so we can understand just what it was and why it meant so much. First, Paul says Abraham "did not waver at the promise of God through unbelief" when God promised him a son and that he would be the father of many nations. He chose to believe even though what was promised seemed absolutely impossible. 


Paul then says Abraham "was strengthened in faith". The way this is worded, in English anyway, sounds like the strength Abraham found to believe in God didn't come entirely from himself. God made Abraham's faith strong. I imagine that God found in Abraham a believing heart and decided to make this man's faith even stronger. "For whoever has," said our Lord Jesus, "to him more will be given, and he will have abundance" (Matthew 13:12).


Next Paul says that Abraham gave glory to God as he believed in Him. If you have ever had an experience in which you have believed in God and put your faith in Him, you probably know what it means to make God's glory a part of your belief in Him. Even when God doesn't answer my prayers the way I want Him to, I know that I must give Him glory, not because He demands it but because He deserves it. I know He wants the best for me and that He knows what that is much better than I do, just as I know what is good for my babies better than they do (ahem--diaper changes). Therefore I give glory to my Father in heaven as I believe in Him for every good thing.


Finally, Paul says that Abraham was "fully convinced" that God was able to do what He had promised. This goes beyond just believing--it's knowing. Do I have this kind of faith when I ask the Lord for the things I need? Do I know without doubt that He will provide for me because He loves me and is able to do absolutely anything that is required?


Let's sum up Paul's explanation of Abraham's faith. 

  • He did not waver at God's promise through unbelief.
  • He was strengthened in faith with a strength that came from the Lord.
  • He gave glory to God as he believed.
  • He was fully convinced that God was able to do what He'd promised.
I was hoping to make some fun acronym out of that, but there doesn't seem to be one. I think the point is obvious, though--this describes the true kind of faith that God credits to us as righteousness. It's not how many projects we do in His name that saves us, or even how many people we talk to about the Lord, though these things are important as His children and representatives in the world. And we know that He doesn't put our deeds on a balance and weigh the good against the bad, as many today still believe. 

It's an unwavering, God-strengthened, glorifying, fully convinced belief in God's promises that makes us righteous in His sight. And because His greatest promise is that the blood of His Son, shed on the cross, cleanses all our sin (1 John 1:7), it's our belief and hope in that promise that makes us worthy to stand in His presence (Hebrews 6:19) and be called sons of God (Galatians 3:26). Amen!

Final Thoughts
I'm so happy to finally be a "New Dad". I knew what kind of challenges were in store for us in theory, but the realities are shocking and, at times, absolutely overwhelming. But so are the rewards. We are so grateful for all the prayers, gifts, and acts of service we have humbly received from our friends, family, neighbors, co-workers and more. Thank goodness for us everyone loves babies! Now we just have to do an incredible job raising them and we'll be all set.

I'm a New Dad!

Very proud mommy!
Abbey and Neavey were born yesterday and are already 25+ hours old! It was a long and somewhat complicated labor, but God came through for us, and everyone is doing ok.


Abbey was touch-and-go for the first few minutes of her life, and she's still recovering. We've shed some tears over that very real scare. We expect to be in the hospital until tomorrow, but we're not sure yet.


They're the most beautiful babies in the nursery, and we couldn't possibly be happier! Thanks for all the prayers!

The Big Announcement

It's official! Tara's being induced on Sunday, so we'll have Halloween babies unless they take a long time and are born on Monday. Thanks for all the prayers, kind thoughts and warm wishes!

Almost Baby Time!

The Haps
Not exactly the hilarious
picture Tara was going for,
but you get the idea.
Been pretty busy, as you can imagine!


 We were able to move into our house when we wanted to, and the buying process went very smoothly. I wasn't sure I wanted our brand new church friends to help us move, since we didn't know them and they didn't know us very well at all. But it went fine, and I'm very grateful to them all. Tara says they saved us around $500!


There was a guy getting into his storage unit as we were moving out of ours, and he gave me an organ! It's pretty cool. I think the amp inside it must be bigger than my little amps, because plugging it into my amp doesn't make it sound any more impressive at all. It's got a pretty great sound on its own.


I did my civic duty last week in the comfort of my own home. It was nice...I didn't know anything about the candidates for Supreme Court Justice in Ohio, so Tara helped me do some research while I voted. Now I don't have to worry about getting to a voting booth on Election Day when I may very well be stuck in a hospital! Now if I could just get Tara to complete her ballot before she goes into labor...


We're looking at that happening any day now. Tara even thinks there's a possibility they may induce her tomorrow! We really don't know.


Thoughts
I've been really stressed lately, with all the craziness of the last few months. Stress is not a normal part of my personality, and I don't think it suits me well at all. I truly believe that Tara is the only woman who could fit the role of my wife and support me as well as she does. I'm so thankful for her!


We held Christmas stockings a while ago that had "Mommy" and "Neave" stitched into them (the other two haven't arrived yet). What a moment that was. It's feeling more real every day. This is happening!


Today's Scripture
Romans 4:1-8 (NKJV)


Key verse: (5) "But to him who does not work but believes on Him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is accounted for righteousness..."


Reflection
"Faith alone, apart from works." This phrase sums up the greatest part of Paul's teachings in the New Testament. As he told the Galatians (2:16), "a man is not justified by the works of the law but by faith in Jesus Christ."


The way he words our key verse in Romans chapter 4, "to him who does not work...his faith is accounted for righteousness," seems to put him in conflict with James's teaching that "faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead" (James 2:17). But does it?


Did Paul think that we might as well rest from ministry since Jesus did all the work that was necessary on the cross? We can say an emphatic "no" for two good reasons: Both his example and his other letters said otherwise.


Paul told Titus (3:8), while speaking on this same subject, that "those who have believed in God should be careful to maintain good works." Why? "These things are good and profitable to men," he said. We can certainly see, in the Book of Acts and in most of Paul's letters, that he lived his life to glorify God and spread His message far and wide. While he didn't write much to encourage work by church members outside the church doors, he certainly taught by example.


In today's passage, Paul explains to new Jewish believers in Rome that what they had always thought about Abraham was not quite right. Jews and Muslims alike believe that God favored Abraham because he obeyed the Lord. Paul is saying that it was Abraham's belief, before he ever obeyed, that God accounted to him for righteousness. "For if Abraham was justified by works, he has something to boast about, but not before God" (Romans 4:2). Abraham relied totally on God's promises, not on his own good works. We know this because "he believed in the LORD, and He accounted it to him for righteousness" (Genesis 15:6).


You've surely heard the tired but still important question, "Why should someone who's gone to prison for [insert terrible crime here] be saved and go to heaven just because he said a prayer?" Paul's teachings about faith alone, without works, are not easy for everyone. Particularly for those who have continued to refuse God's Way, it's hard to understand how Jesus' sacrifice on the cross paid for every person's sin, no matter how bad. But for those of us who believe, what an incredible thing it is to be forgiven, chosen, included and adopted because of our faith in the cross!


It is clear throughout the Bible, however, that maintaining good works is "good and profitable to men". Just look at God's first covenant with His people, and their part of it, as spelled out by the Ten Commandments. After Christ's death and resurrection, Paul told the Ephesians (2:10) that we are "created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them." Good works is part of who we are as adopted sons and daughters. But they don't happen automatically; otherwise Jesus wouldn't have to say, "Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven" (Matthew 5:16).


How natural it should be for me to obey my Christ! He walks beside me even when I forget He's there. He communes with my inner man and intercedes with His Father on my behalf. He died on a cross and asks only that I believe in Him and love my fellow man, whom He loves (1 John 3:23). Why should anyone have to tell me to do the work of God? I want to do whatever pleases Him! May I ever seek it out.


"If you love Me, keep My commandments" (John 14:15).


Prayer
Lord Jesus, no matter how stressful life gets, and no matter how many arrows Satan fires at me, may I always delight in obeying your commands. They are good, and few would argue with that. Keeping them is "good and profitable to men". May my good works be evidence of a faith that is always alive in me and always hoping for all that You've promised, and may I "always be ready to give a defense to everyone who asks [me] for a reason for the hope that is in [me]" (1 Peter 3:15). In Jesus' name I pray.


Final Thoughts
Just a big thanks to everyone who has prayed and supported us in so many ways this year. I know you'll keep doing so long after our kids have arrived. I expect this will be my last post before I actually am a "New Dad". I couldn't be happier.

Still Here!

I haven't given up on this blog at all! But we haven't found our wireless modem yet, since the move, and my posts on this blog take a lot of time. I can't take time out of my office work to write those long posts, and at home I just don't have time.


We're still unpacking boxes and waiting for kiddos to arrive. We love our house and our new town, and we're making friends!


And I got an organ!


Hopefully I'll get around to writing a real post one of these days!

Closing Week!

The Haps
We just had our final walk-through in the new house, and we're pretty excited. We're not exactly sure what day we'll be closing, but it's definitely this week! Not sure when moving day is, either, but who cares? It's finally gonna be our home!


Abbey and Neavey:
Ready to pop
into the world!
Tara turned eight months pregnant this past week. Won't be long now!


In much less exciting news, I've decided to bring back the music podcast I was doing last year, starting in January. I started a new blog to go with it. And I've decided to record an album of songs about Jesus in 2011 with a much more acoustic sound than stuff I've been doing with Tara lately.


Thoughts
Thanks to a late-night coffee, I spent a lot of time thinking one night this past week. I came up with not only some New Year's resolutions, but also a long-term plan. Now that my career is finally established and should pretty much cruise if I keep working hard, I can think a little more about what I can do with whatever spare time I can find. 2011 will be interesting enough with a new city, new job, new house, new church, new friends and (oh yeah) new babies. But there are a few things I'd like to do to make it even more satisfying:

  1. Produce a fantastic "Christian" album to share with the world for free (I came up with a good chorus this week).
  2. Learn a very old and interesting martial arts kata, probably leopard-style wushu like the leopard in Kung Fu Panda. I'll have to learn the dragon and tiger basics first.
  3. Record twelve half-hour podcasts for my music show. 

Then, for my long-term plan:

  • 2012: Record the second Awful Lot of Tigers album
  • 2013: Write my first novel
  • 2014: Record our "wedding album", a set of instrumental tracks I dreamed up for our wedding but didn't have time to record (might or might not write lyrics for it)
  • 2015: Record the third ALoT album (by this time our girls will be old enough to provide back-up vocals)
  • 2016: Write my second novel

It's all part of my grand plan to become the most interesting man in the world. By 2017 I'd like to be a VP at this company!


A nice thing about all these plans is that I can do them all at home, and they're very inexpensive--practically free, except that I really need to replace my electric guitar soon. So it will be relatively easy to be a dad and save money while accomplishing my goals. Can't beat that!


Today's Scripture
We've joined a new Bible study group, and they're kind of serious about it. They actually want me to read up and do some thinking ahead of time! So I'm going to interrupt my study of 2 Samuel, sadly leaving King David at a very low point, and get into Paul's letter to the Romans for a while. That's gonna make it a lot harder to pick a key verse!


Romans 1:18 - 2:16 (NKJV)
Key verse: (2:13) "...For not the hearers of the law are just in the sight of God, but the doers of the law will be justified..."


Reflection
There's a lot to reflect on here. It's important to know that Paul has just written a lot about sin and God's wrath. He writes that no one has an excuse to rebel against the things of God because we're surrounded by His works (1:20) and the work of His law is written on our hearts (2:15). Paul is writing to Jewish Romans, as we see in 2:17, and he makes a distinction between Jews and Gentiles in verses 14 and 15.


This is important for me as a Christian Gentile. Many talk about "spiritual Israel" these days, but Paul explains the situation clearly enough in chapter 11 of Romans. I, as a Gentile, am among those grafted into Christ's vine in place of the Jews who refused to believe in Him. Although I am adopted into His family and serve His kingdom, I think the Bible makes it clear that I am not one of the true Jews who will eventually be saved (11:26).


I think that Romans 2:13-15, though speaking to Jews, gives me a hint of my situation in Christ. Verse 13 is our key verse, and then Paul says, "...For when Gentiles, who do not have the law, by nature do the things in the law, these, although not having the law, are a law to themselves, who show the work of the law written in their hearts, their conscience also bearing witness, and between themselves their thoughts accusing or else excusing them..."


I won't talk about this as if I completely understand it, because it's complicated and there are probably many different views of what Paul means exactly. I'll tell you what I think based on my reading of the Bible, though. It seems to me that this passage could include both saved and unsaved Gentiles because, as Paul often wrote, Gentile believers were not expected to adopt Jewish law. In fact, he discouraged it, even scolding Peter at one point for his hypocrisy in this regard (Galatians 2:14). It seems like many American church members like to think of themselves as God's chosen people, in place of the Jews, but the Bible makes it pretty clear that we're just grafted in and can easily be ripped out if we're not careful (Romans 11:21). Paul said us Gentiles are from an olive tree that is "wild by nature" (11:24), and though we've come a long way in two thousand years, I imagine he would still see us that way today.


So, in my opinion, Paul is talking about both me and my unbelieving friends when he says that when we do things that are within God's lawthings that please Himit shows that the "work of the law" is written in our hearts (2:15) even though we were never given the law (2:14). We can read the Ten Commandments and practice them, but they weren't meant for us Gentiles. But when we follow the law—when we seek to please the Lord because we love Him and we know His ways are right and true—we are justified as doers of the law and not hearers only (2:13).


Does this mean that my unbelieving friends are saved from God's wrath? Based on what Paul wrote in the preceding verses about sin, I don't think so. But it tells me something about their capacity for being saved. If they love their neighbors as themselves and show themselves to be people with the work of the law written in their hearts, they certainly have the capacity to be justified. God tells us over and over throughout His word the kind of heart that pleases Him. Belief in the Son He gave up for us and baptism into His kingdom should be natural for such people if they aren't completely disgusted by the Christians they come into contact with.


My point? To you Gentile believers, I warn you to remember who you are and where you came from. I should see my church family as descendants of those early believers in Greece who received the word of the Lord with gladness and set out to put it into practice with the help of the Holy Spirit. I must do the work of the Lord by loving my neighbor and letting him know the reason for the hope that is in me (1 Peter 3:15). But if I like to lift myself up as someone who keeps God's commandments, I should watch out. Even King David, a man after God's own heart (Acts 13:22), committed terrible deeds (see the "Stir Crazy" post) that had horrible results (2 Samuel 12:15). I need to repent of my haughtiness before I drag the rest of the wild olive branches down with me. I just might save a few more wild ones along the way if I follow the path of humility.


Prayer
Lord, when I associate with nonbelievers, may I remember the grace You showed me when You first made Yourself known to me, a sinner. May I see them not as hopeless reprobates but as wild olive branches, just like me, who need Your grace just like I did. May I always find joy in doing Your work in the world!


Final Thoughts
Tara and I felt so happy walking around in our future home today. We are so blessed. There's a lot to think about, and I hope we won't stress out so much that we forget to enjoy this incredible time in our lives. Thanks for your prayers!


By the way, I just saw a scientology ad on this blog. Please know that I am not about that stuff! I am a Bible-believing member of a Southern Baptist church. I'm not completely conservative in my views, but I stick to God's word and believe in His gospel alone as the power of God for salvation in this world. Just so you know.

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The Haps
This week we filled out a form to get a tax reimbursement because we've lived in a hotel for more than thirty days. I had no idea there was such a law in place.


But there is finally some good news this week: we've been approved for a mortgage on that big, beautiful old house in Delaware, Ohio! Hopefully we'll be closing on it in the next week or so! Praise God!


We found out one of our girls, Neavey, is no longer breech but isn't head-down, either. She's transverse and sort of lying over her sister. As you can imagine, this is very uncomfortable for their poor mother! She's not on bedrest yet, but she's not having a great time. In fact, she's fairly miserable, so your prayers are appreciated.


I had decided to save money and not go to a gig I'd wanted to see for two months. Then someone at work gave me a ticket the day of the show. It was No Age vs. Pavement...I mean, No Age and Pavement. These are two very different rock bands, and most of the attendees were there to see Pavement. I had a great time watching No Age--I have all their albums--and the headliner band seemed really boring in comparison. I had a good time with my friend from the office, though.


Thoughts
Now that I've been working at this company for a month-and-a-half, I can say what I think about working there. It's...fine. The work is interesting, but it's not a better situation compared to what I had in New York. It's not worse, either. It's just very different. But the money is a whole lot better, and just living in Ohio makes our financial situation significantly better. So I certainly don't regret the decision to move. We just can't wait to be out of this hotel...but I covered that in my last post.

Today's Scripture
2 Samuel 12 (NKJV)
Key verse: (14) "If you fear the LORD and serve Him and obey His voice, and do not rebel against the commandment of the LORD, then both you and the king who reigns over you will continue following the LORD your God."


Reflection
There were several verses I could've focused on today, but this one struck me as particularly interesting. Usually when the Bible gives an "if/then" promise, God's people are promised some kind of blessing if they follow the Lord. In this instance, Samuel promises the people that if they fear, serve and obey the Lord and don't rebel against his commands, they and the king will continue to follow Him.


Think about that for a second. If I fear, serve and obey the Lord, He promises that I will continue to follow Him? Isn't that kind of what I was already doing?


I've learned a lot in the last couple of years, especially from Tara, about letting my mind follow my body, especially in social situations. If I don't feel like being nice or being interested in what someone else has to say, sometimes I make myself do it anyway because I know good things will result. Just this week I found myself pretending to be interested in what someone was saying because I wanted them to be my friend. It feels disingenuous, but it has a good purpose. As I practice being nice or being interested in a person, I make a habit out of it, and eventually I find that I actually enjoy that person's company. Have I changed in a way when I do that? Yes, but certainly not for the worse.


I love to remind Christians that serving God doesn't come naturally for anyone. None of us keep His commandments out of the goodness of our cold, human heart. "For we know that the law is spiritual, but I am carnal, sold under sin (Romans 7:14)." When Jesus' Spirit enters in, we are transformed into a new creature (2 Corinthians 5:17), and it's by His constant prodding and reminding that we are able to serve the Lord with gladness and receive His blessing. "...If by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are the sons of God (Romans 8:13-14)."


God's people in Samuel's day didn't yet have a Savior, but they were given many promises. This one says that if they fear, serve and obey the Lord, they will continue to follow Him. Just like I continue to be a friend to someone if I work to make it a habit, a child of God can continue to follow the Lord if they work at fearing, serving and obeying Him. If I don't make a habit of those things, it's not very likely that I will continue to follow Him! In fact, Samuel gives them the opposite promise in verse 15: "...If you do not obey the voice of the LORD, but rebel against the commandment of the LORD, then the hand of the LORD will be against you..." 


I don't know if the hand of the Lord would be against someone who had given their life to Jesus. I would hope that a person who knows Jesus as their Savior would not rebel against His command...but I've done it myself. Whether His hand was against me or not, I can't say, but I can tell you this--I was not following the Lord when I was in rebellion against Him. Does that seem obvious? It should. And because we are wayward children, even as His Spirit lives in us, we need to be reminded every now and then!


So I think the promise holds true for us, as well: If we fear, serve and obey the Lord, we will continue to follow Him. You know what I call that? A promise of blessing!

Prayer
Lord, may I always consider the gift of following You to be the greatest blessing in my life. More than my wife and children, more than all you've given me on this earth, my greatest treasure is knowing and following You! Thank you for this gift.


Final Thoughts
No action figures were harmed
in the making of this album
I probably think way too much about the rock album Tara and I released in May. We spent almost nothing to make it, and we saved $100 to promote it and then didn't spend any of it. I'm really proud of the job that we did, but I'm too proud to spend much time advertising it. I have a day job, after all. And then I get frustrated because hardly anyone seems to want to hear it. I keep having to remind myself that I made the album I wanted to make rather than an album that all my friends would like to hear. But I think it's pretty good, myself!


Maybe one of these days I'll start doing some performances at open mic nights to get more people interested. Until then, here's a little promotion: if you'd like to stream our album for free, visit soundcloud.com/awfullotoftigers, and if you want to buy the MP3s (99¢ each or $10.49 for the whole album), go to myspace.com/awfullotoftigers (which got a whole new look this week). I should probably say here that it is not a "Christian" album, but it is mostly positive in tone. All proceeds will go to diapers and baby food for the twins. And your comments, even your criticism, would do my mind a lot of good. Thanks!

Stir Crazy

The Haps
30 weeks! We're getting close!
Tara's thirty weeks this week. There's not much else going on, just work and meeting new people at church. We hope to move into the new house in a week-and-a-half, but there aren't any guarantees that it's ours until we close. We can't wait.


Thoughts
Must...move out...of the hotel...


Today's Scripture
2 Samuel 11 (NKJV)
Key verses: (14-15) "...David wrote a letter to Joab and sent it by the hand of Uriah. And he wrote in the letter, saying, 'Set Uriah in the forefront of the hottest battle, and retreat from him, that he may be struck down and die.'"


Reflection
The story of David's affair with Bathsheba and the murder of her husband is familiar to most church-going Bible readers. I had forgotten that David sends the letter containing Uriah's death sentence to Joab by Uriah's own hand. That's just terrible. We don't know for sure, but it seems like the army might not have retreated as David ordered. They may not have even received that order. Joab may be too ashamed of his king to relay it. Instead he uses Uriah's death to get out of hot water when he accidentally gets several of his men killed along with Uriah. Poor Uriah!


I'm glad we find out at the end of this chapter how God feels about this. So often we have to guess about that, in the Bible as well as in life, but we know for sure that at least Uriah's murder displeases God, and we can assume the adultery does, too, since that clearly goes against the laws He laid out through Moses. The story of the poor man and his lamb that Nathan tells David in the next chapter seems to confirm this.


Prayer
Lord, watch over my heart that I may not covet that with which you have blessed someone else. Keep me from adultery, thievery, murder and covetousness all my days. May I always strive to be a man after your own heart. In Jesus' name, amen.


Final Thoughts
There's not much to talk about this week, but we all know it's coming. Stay tuned.

We Heart College Football!

The Haps
Watching: Illinois vs. Missouri online and several games on TV. Can't wait to have a real internet connection in our new home!


Just chillin' with Tara today. We went out for dinner and a movie last night and had a really good time. 


I would've liked a pocket, but otherwise
this is a great shirt for a great price!
And after shopping for a nice polo all summer, I finally found one on a big sale at Nordstrom's--on the same day that temperatures dropped about ten degrees. Oh well, I'll be ready for spring! This is a soft cotton three-button polo in a dark blue color with orange trim by Montreal designer Robert Barakett. Very nice.


That's about it, really, and that's just fine. Things seem to be going well with this second house, but it's a long process, and there's nothing to announce yet. But it does look really good. We can't wait to move and get the house ready for the babies!


Thoughts
We were talking today about how the best stuff that happens in life is so often the stuff that can't be posted on Facebook! Personal stuff about ourselves or our friends, good stuff that happens at work but is proprietary...just thought that was funny. We might get to visit some rather famous people next year (relatives of friends), but that's about all that we can say about it online!


Today's Scripture
2 Samuel 10 (NKJV) (Wherein the action picks up again in a major way, and we get a great example of how not to do foreign relations.)


Key verse: (2) "Then David said, 'I will show kindness to Hanun the son of Nahash, as his father showed kindness to me.'"



Reflection
It starts out a lot like the previous chapter, but it doesn't end up that way! A character from Samuel Part 1 has a son in the sequel. David says that King Nahash of the Ammonites was kind to him, though that story isn't told in the Bible (maybe that reel was lost). He sends servants to comfort Nahash's son and heir to the throne, Hanun, but Hanun is one very stupid dude. He mistrusts David and treats his servants shamefully, inciting a war with a king who has already established himself as one of the most powerful in the region, one who was apparently his ally until this unfortunate day.


David has a choice to make. I doubt the United States would line up troops against a hostile country just because they put a few ambassadors to shame for no reason. But in David's time and culture, this was a serious matter of honor. Israel as a nation has a statement to make--you don't mess with God's people. Luckily, the choice is taken away from David, because stupid Hanun decides that it would be better to hire Syrian mercenaries to line up on Israel's border than to apologize. And then he takes his own Ammonite troops and moves them right up to Jerusalem's gate! Oh, snap!


The Israelites are caught between the Syrians on the north and the Ammonites pretty much right on top of them, so they split up and trounce them both, hurting the Syrians quite severely just a couple of chapters after dealing them a prior major blow and making them Israel's servants. Hard to believe Syria still exists today after all this.


So we go from David wanting to be kind to the Ammonites' new king to David destroying the Syrians hired by Hanun against him. Israel takes out the Ammonites themselves in the first verse of the next chapter! But they do it without David, because he decides to stay home this time, a decision he'll come to regret.


The lesson? Pretty obvious--don't be a stupid Hanun! If someone powerful wants to be your friend, don't assume he's going to stab you in the back. And of course, you'll be sorry if you go up against God's chosen king for no reason at all. Not sure how to apply this to my life, but...


Prayer
Lord, thank you for all your blessings. Please continue to give me patience as we wait to move into a house. Please keep Tara and our girls healthy! Let me know what I can do for you. In Jesus' name, amen.


Oh, and thank you for football!


Final Thoughts
We think about our little girls all the time and what they're going to be like through the years to come. It blows my mind how different our world is going to become starting in a matter of weeks! I'm pretty excited. We have so many visions of them in our new house. It's gonna be tough, but so worth it. We're so thankful.

House Number 2 in the Crosshairs



The Haps
The house we're trying to get now.
Tara calls it a "cottage", but I prefer "castle".
We're negotiating on a different house now, one that we first looked at last weekend. It's an impressive place, much costlier than the other one but without all the issues it has. Tara and I are pretty much in love with it. 


It has a lot of space, including a completely renovated basement with a big "man room" for my instruments and my Total Gym. If I ever record another album, that will be the room where it happens. I'd like to get back into podcasting, too, if my career and family allow me the time I would need.


Tara is 28 weeks pregnant now.
I finally took a good picture of her!
It's looking like church could keep us pretty busy, too. We joined this church last Sunday after our first visit. We attended a membership class at the pastor's house and were pretty hooked. They expect a lot out of their members, so we'll probably be just as involved there as we were at our church in Saratoga.


Thoughts
I hate to complain, but we're so sick of this hotel. They're not even trying to actually clean our room anymore. It's a relatively cheap room, as hotels go, but the cost adds up really fast. We're paying a lot more to live here than we were paying at our nice condo in New York, so it would be nice if our quality of life were a little better than it is now. As it stands, we're very motivated to get outta here.


Today's Scripture
2 Samuel 9 (NKJV)
Key Verse: (1) "Now David said, 'Is there still anyone left of the house of Saul, that I may show him kindness for Jonathan's sake?'"


Reflection
This short chapter gives us a strong glimpse at the true nature of David's character. We all know about his incredible relationship with his friend Jonathan. I wonder if he feels guilty over the deaths of Jonathan and Saul. He showed no mercy to the man who confessed to killing Saul at his own request, to end his misery (chapter 1). It was the Philistine army who killed Jonathan and mortally wounded Saul, and it was an Amalekite who struck the death blow. But that man went straight to David, probably expecting him to be happy about it. David seemed to go out of his way to show the Israelites that Saul's death was not at all what he had wanted.


Now David is desperate to do anything he can for Jonathan, and since he can't do anything in life, he wants to do something for his family. How happy he must have been to find out that not only did Jonathan have a son still living, but that this son was lame in both feet and had been cut off from Saul's servants somehow. It must have been a great relief to know that he could honor Jonathan's memory for the rest of his life by showing great kindness to his son.


When was the last time I sought to honor someone or show them kindness when I wasn't expected to? I think about that whenever it's time to buy a gift for a family member or friend. There are so many times when I'm expected to show kindness that I sometimes forget to honor someone because they deserve honor, or that I should show someone kindness because God's word says I should and it's the right thing to do. Maybe I should take a lesson from David and really think about other people once in a while, and not just what I can do for myself and my wife.


Prayer
Lord, is there anyone to whom I can show kindness this week? Whom can I honor who wouldn't be expecting it? What difference can I make in someone's life for Your sake?


Thank You for showing us the ultimate kindness by sacrificing Your Son. Thank You, Jesus, for teaching us how to live for God's glory, and thank You for Your death and resurrection. May we give You all the glory You deserve; we pray in Your name.


Final Thoughts
Ok, it's time for babies to get down. They started out in a yin-yang formation, but they were both breech at our last ultrasound. I read that using headphones to play music for them in the womb might be useful for encouraging them to get down, turn around, go to town and boot scootin' boogie to where they're supposed to be for birth. I wonder if that song would work!

Still Seeking a Home

The Haps
Listening to: Rose Melberg, Cars Can Be Blue and similar artists on my "Recommended Radio" at Last.fm, which always plays me a lot more "twee" than it ought to. Kind of nice on a hazy Saturday morning, though.


"Please, we just need a house
before I'm as big as one!"
This has been a much quieter week by comparison. We're not much closer to getting the house than we were last weekend, unfortunately. Tara is still working hard with our realtor.


She woke up noticeably larger yesterday. She showed me an illustration of what our babies look like now, and they're a lot bigger than I realized. We're getting into the third trimester now!


This week I got to write copy for a "tear pad" for cancer patients. It's just a stack of sheets with chemotherapy information that the doctors will rip off and give to their new patients. While lung cancer is a very serious condition, it's exciting to me that one of the first things many newly diagnosed patients will receive will be a page of information that I wrote! That's the kind of thing that drives and motivates me in this job.


Tomorrow we'll finally visit a church and try to make some friends. We could really use a few right now! I guess it's been three weeks since we had anything to do with church. The one we're looking at seems exciting.


Thoughts
The difference in my attitude this month and my attitude when I started my previous job has been very obvious to me. At the end of 2007, I had just been let go from a job, been on unemployment wages for two months, ended up having to move literally a thousand miles away to be employed again in a place far from any place I'd ever been. Not only that, but I had just become engaged to a girl I'd known for about nine months, and it was to be a very short engagement! Looking back, I'm actually happy about how well I was able to get through it, and I know it's only because I was looking to the Lord, and He was beside me the whole time.


How completely different it is this time! My last company actually misses me now, because I suddenly got a lot better at my job at the end of 2009. I'm in one of the happiest marriages I've ever seen, back in a state I already loved, in a workplace that amazes me with really nice people, and about to have twin girls! And, importantly, I have twice as much confidence as I had a few years ago thanks to the experience I've gained since then. I no longer feel like the account executives are talking way over my head--just a little over it sometimes. In short, I'm pretty much right where I want to be in life.


The only question now is...am I where God wants me to be yet? With the Holy Spirit living in me, I can't help but ask that. And I'm glad, because that lets me know He indeed lives in me!


Today's Scripture
2 Samuel 8
Key verse: (11) "King David also dedicated these [gifts] to the Lord, along with the silver and gold that he had dedicated from all the nations which he had subdued..."


Reflection
A short but action-packed chapter. King David is taking over large chunks of the Middle East, including strong nations such as Syria and Edom (an ancient kingdom in what is now Jordan). Apparently God did not have a problem with Israel subduing peoples beyond the borders of the land He had promised His people. It seems as though David made a hobby of that, though it's more likely that he was merely defending his country from the surrounding nations who were threatening it.


David had a rare, special relationship with the Lord. The more powerful he became, the more he recognized the hand of God in everything that occurred. This is very clear when we read his Psalms. How opposite is his mentality from that of so many Israelites in the Old Testament who forgot the Lord in the good times. Unlike them, David didn't need to be defeated by an enemy before he would remember the Lord. He walked with Him in good times and bad and constantly looked for opportunities to show the Lord his gratitude. Who would have expected his predecessor, Saul, to dedicate to God precious metals acquired from his enemies? The word "dedicate" is not used in the Bible during Saul's reign at all!


Prayer
Lord, thank you for this time of blessing in our lives. May we always look for ways to show you our gratitude and give you all of ourselves. Let us walk beside you closely and call upon you in times of peace and plenty as well as in times of need.


Please help Tara and keep her healthy during this final trimester. Help us to find a place to live soon so we can fully prepare for our babies' arrival. And please provide friends for us who will be willing to help when we are in need. Thank you, in Jesus' name.


Final Thoughts
We finally drove through downtown Columbus the other evening, and I felt a little let down. I expected it to be like Dayton only bigger and more exciting. I was not impressed. Fortunately, we really like the northern area where we are staying and working, and we like the little town north of Columbus, Delaware, where we are hoping to live. Northern Columbus is the booming part of town, and it's exciting to be here.


UPDATE: Before I was able to edit and post this, we went up to Delaware to look at the house again. While we were up there, we looked at another, more expensive house. We're seriously thinking about switching. We'll let you know!