Babies' First Christmas

The Haps
Listening to: The Django soundtrack with music by Luis Bacalov. Such a cool movie.


They were so excited to see
Santa that they passed right out.
We're getting up to six hours of sleep in a row now. So we're still awfully tired, but we're doing better all the time.


The girls are seven weeks old today. They're very healthy as far as we can tell. They fuss a lot, and I worry about where all their gassiness comes from. But maybe that's normal.


It's Tara I'm more concerned about. She's going to see a neurologist this week to try and find out why she's still dizzy so often. She's able to drive a car now, but we need her totally healthy!


We get to enjoy Christmas by ourselves this weekend, just the four of us, and we're pretty happy about it. Tara's family, among others, will be visiting us the following week.


Thoughts
No one ever told me how much effort a husband might need to make in order to love his family in the first weeks after childbirth. Maybe more effort is required for parents of twins. My wife is still the wonderful lady I married, but lack of sleep and frequent baby-screaming is hard on a family. We've had lots of support from family and friends, including plenty of prayer, and I believe that's the only way we've gotten through this. If not for our faith, I fear how much worse it could have been. I believe the darkest days are behind us now, though, thank God!


Today's Scripture
Romans 6:1-14 (NKJV)


Key verse: (3) "...Do you not know that that as many of us as were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into His death?"


Reflection
Funny that this point that Paul brought to the Romans' attention is still not emphasized that much in our churches today. I think most of our church members understand that when we come to Christ, we leave our old ways of doing things behind and allow Him to give us new life. But how often do we truly associate ourselves with His death? Do I fully realize that my old self was crucified with Him? As Paul told the Galatians in a parallel passage, "I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me" (Galatians 2:20). 


And in this chapter in Romans, he says that "we have been united together in the likeness of His death" (verse 5) and "our old man was crucified with Him" (verse 6). Why? So that we'll "be in the likeness of His resurrection" (verse 5) and "that we should no longer be slaves of sin" (verse 6)!


I was discussing this chapter of Romans with some friends recently. We were trying to figure out what was most important to Paul when he was trying to explain these somewhat difficult concepts to his audience. Why was it important to him that we understand that we were baptized into Christ's death? I think it's because he wanted us to realize how much lies in store for us if we'll only shake off the shackles of our old life of sin. "Those who are Christ's have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires," he told the Galatians (5:24). I think what Christ wants for us is what Paul tells us in Galatians 5:1: "Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free." To do this, we must "not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage." Apparently getting entangled is easy to do. Have you experienced this?


But why is it so easy? If we have indeed been crucified with Him and baptized into His death, why should someone even need to tell us to "not let sin reign in your mortal body" (Romans 6:12) and to "cast off the works of darkness" (Romans 13:12)? Why do we even need all the encouragement the New Testament letters give us if our old selves are dead and we've been given new life in Christ?


For one thing, as long as we are in the world, we are surrounded by lies. Paul told Timothy that "some will depart from the faith, giving heed to deceiving spirits and doctrines of demons, speaking lies in hypocrisy" (1 Timothy 4:1-2). And as Paul tells us later in Romans 6, our human flesh is still weak, still waiting for the Resurrection of the Saints. "I speak in human terms because of the weakness of your flesh," he says (verse 19).


As a husband and father who dearly loves his family, I find that I need to remind myself of my role and that I need to actively show them love every day. It's not something that always comes naturally, even though I always love them deep in my heart. Similarly, Paul needs to remind us that we who have died with Christ have been freed from sin (verse 7). We need his reminder to "reckon yourselves to be dead indeed to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus our Lord (verse 11)." We need it because it doesn't come naturally, even for us who have been crucified with him. It's like we need to remind ourselves that we came back from the dead with Him!


I like that word "reckon". Sure it makes me think of cowboys in the movies, but in this context it means to "think of yourself as", to "consider yourself". Paul is telling us to think of ourselves as what we really are—dead to sin and alive in Christ! We're still trapped in these dying bodies with their old habits, but we have new life inside. It's easy to forget somehow, but we need to remember it!


Prayer
Lord, as I am surrounded by lies and so easily entangled, please remind me each day of who I am—a child adopted by You, crucified with Your Son and made alive again with Him in His resurrection. Thank you for the Gospel and all that it means and provides. May I take it with me everywhere I go. Thank you for the gift of Your Son. In His mighty name I pray.


Final Thoughts
I can't get over how much He's blessed me. So it's amazing how easily I can feel sorry for myself! In fact, it's sinful. He's given me everything, and every time I need something, I ask and receive. Praise God from whom all blessings flow, and may He forgive me when I show myself needless, senseless pity. Things are getting better every day, and now I can just look back and remember how hard it was and how much easier it is now! What a gift!


Merry Christmas!

Vacation Nearly Over

The Haps
"I heard a secret!"
"Oh, do tell, dahling!"
The girls are 27 days old already! Tara's folks were here for a while, then we had a week to ourselves, and then my folks were here for a few days over the holiday. Now we're enjoying lots of football and rest before I finally return to work. We've been well cared for by family and friends.

Thoughts
It didn't take long for me to start dreaming about our girls, but so far I always dream about one baby, a nameless, shapeless form that seems to be a combination of Abbey and Neave. And each dream typically involves something going wrong, such as accidentally leaving the baby in the car, so I wonder if this dream baby blob just represents the burden of being a father. Of course I love them like crazy, but it is a burden some days! I'm afraid my days of looking eight years younger than my actual age may soon be ending with all the stress they're providing.

Today's Scripture
Romans 5:1-11 (NKJV)

Key verse: (10) "For if when we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more, having been reconciled, we shall be saved by His life."

Reflection
There's a lot of information and explanation here, and much on which to reflect! I noticed that Paul spends some time explaining what our justification, by faith in Christ's sacrifice on the cross, means for us. That's very important for the Jews in Rome he's writing to as well as for us Gentile believers today. Reconciliation to God the Father is every bit as relevant for us as it was for them.

Paul lists five things that we acquire through justification by faith. The first is "peace with God" (verse 1), which is not something to take for granted. Throughout all the pages and pages of the Old Testament, there is very little peace except during Solomon's reign (1 Chronicles 22:9). Even when God is right there among His people, they often find themselves in rebellion and, therefore, trouble. Despite all God's revelations to them of what it takes to please Him, they are never able to live up to His standards due to their sinful natures. Even the heroes of the Old Testament are susceptible to sin. God continually brings strife into the lives of His people in order to chastise them and bring them to repentance. Peace with God was always something to be attained in the Old Testament, and it was not really possible until Christ came (Acts 10:36) and gave himself up for us by shedding His blood.

The second thing Paul says we get with our justification is "access by faith into this grace in which we stand" (verse 2).  Because our faith in Jesus justifies us, we have access to God's grace. I think that means that God not only tolerates us now, but that He also seeks out the best for us, wanting to bless us as much as we'll let Him (Matthew 7:11). When He looks at someone who loves Jesus and who believes in Him, God remembers the work of grace that Jesus accomplished on the cross and receives us with all the love He has for His precious Son.

Thirdly, Paul says "we rejoice in hope of the glory of God" (verse 2). Because we are justified by God through Christ, we can have great joy and much hope. Glory is promised to those who are called His own (Romans 2:10), and in the end, the glory is all God's (2 Corinthians 1:20).

Paul says "we also glory in tribulations" (verse 3) because we've been justified. And why not? "If God is for us, who can be against us?" (Romans 8:31). If I am made righteous by His Son and am now as justified as His Son, how can I let any calamity discourage me from continuing on this path with God? How could I ever turn away? If Job could praise the Lord through his tribulations, knowing nothing of the cross of Christ, how much more can I live a life of praise and worship when times are tough, knowing all the Lord has done and all He's promised to do?

Finally, skipping ahead, Paul says that "having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from wrath through Him" (verse 9). The nation of Israel knew a lot about God's wrath. Until Christ, their hope was in their sacrifices and in keeping God's Law. There are many different ideas today about what form God's wrath takes for people living now, whether it's here in this life or in the afterlife. Maybe it's some of both. Whatever it is, we know that God's anger is fierce against those who treat the death of His Son as nothing (2 Thessalonians 1:8-9). God has invited us to His wedding feast, and his wrath is hot against those who refuse His invitation, treat his messengers shamefully or show up dressed inappropriately (Matthew 22:2-13).

Fortunately, as our key verse (10) tells us, while Jesus' death restores our relationship with the Father, His life saves us from all of God's wrath. As long as Christ lives, He stands in the gap for us, praying for us (Romans 8:34) and looking out for our best as His adopted brothers and sisters (Romans 8:14). He's not like the older brother in Jesus' story who resented the father's forgiveness and grace for the younger brother who strayed (Luke 15:29-30). Jesus went out and found us, like lost sheep (Luke 15:4-6), and brought us into a relationship with His Father by dying and coming back to life. For all who believe in Him, we are being saved by Him. I can't imagine better news than that.

Prayer
Lord, thank you so much for all your blessings and all your promises. Thank you for my wonderful children. May I always remember the miracle and gift that they are. Thank you for Tara, the best wife and mother I've ever seen. You are truly good.

Final Thoughts
I'm a little concerned about the coming weeks. Starting Monday, Tara will be outnumbered by our kids for the first time while I go back to work. We're not even sure if she'll be able to drive a car because of the vertigo and visual disturbances she's been living with for weeks now. We'd appreciate your continued prayers.

Two Weeks In!

The Haps
Best picture I ever took, by far
Today is our babies' two-week, um, -versary. I think we did good! Neave has a real temper, ever since her first moments, and she's been impressing us with how loudly she can scream over the smallest annoyance, such as dropping her pacifier every half-minute or so. We're figuring this whole thing out. Their grandparents went home yesterday, so we're on our own as a four-person household now. I'm at home for the next two weeks, and my folks will be here for Thanksgiving.


Abbey had some health issues, mostly jaundice, but she seems to be all better now. Tara's health has been of greater concern, with pre-eclampsia and high blood pressure that seem to have brought on a weird kind of vertigo and disturbed vision. The vision problem seems to be her only issue now, but she won't be able to drive a car until it gets better.


That's about all that's going on right now. We finally sold an album, so we are $7.50 richer after ReverbNation took their cut. The kid who bought it is actually listening to it as I write this, and I hope he feels he got his money's worth.


Thoughts
I've confessed to a few people that I'm already having to deal with some anger issues in relation to screaming babies. I was difficult to live with, myself, starting about the sixth hour of Tara's 22-hour labor, and I didn't really get my attitude back into shape until a week ago. That first week was super tough, but I've dealt with myself and with the Lord, and, with the help of my incredible wife, I'm ready to be the father I've always dreamt I could be.


Today's Scripture
Romans 4:9-25 (NKJV)


Key verses: (20-22) "He did not waver at the promise of God through unbelief, but was strengthened in faith, giving glory to God, and being fully convinced that what He had promised He was also able to perform. And therefore 'it was accounted to him for righteousness.'"


Reflection
I had forgotten that Paul spends this whole section explaining what Genesis 15:6 means when it says that God accounted Abraham's belief to him for righteousness. I'm so glad he did. He explained it for all those new Jewish believers who were brought up believing that their circumcision as God's chosen people, Israel, was what made them right with God, along with all the animal sacrifices required by Jewish law. But this explanation also helps me, as a Gentile believer in the 21st century, to understand what Jesus did and that His sacrifice allows me to be saved by faith.


The key verses above describe Abraham's faith in detail so we can understand just what it was and why it meant so much. First, Paul says Abraham "did not waver at the promise of God through unbelief" when God promised him a son and that he would be the father of many nations. He chose to believe even though what was promised seemed absolutely impossible. 


Paul then says Abraham "was strengthened in faith". The way this is worded, in English anyway, sounds like the strength Abraham found to believe in God didn't come entirely from himself. God made Abraham's faith strong. I imagine that God found in Abraham a believing heart and decided to make this man's faith even stronger. "For whoever has," said our Lord Jesus, "to him more will be given, and he will have abundance" (Matthew 13:12).


Next Paul says that Abraham gave glory to God as he believed in Him. If you have ever had an experience in which you have believed in God and put your faith in Him, you probably know what it means to make God's glory a part of your belief in Him. Even when God doesn't answer my prayers the way I want Him to, I know that I must give Him glory, not because He demands it but because He deserves it. I know He wants the best for me and that He knows what that is much better than I do, just as I know what is good for my babies better than they do (ahem--diaper changes). Therefore I give glory to my Father in heaven as I believe in Him for every good thing.


Finally, Paul says that Abraham was "fully convinced" that God was able to do what He had promised. This goes beyond just believing--it's knowing. Do I have this kind of faith when I ask the Lord for the things I need? Do I know without doubt that He will provide for me because He loves me and is able to do absolutely anything that is required?


Let's sum up Paul's explanation of Abraham's faith. 

  • He did not waver at God's promise through unbelief.
  • He was strengthened in faith with a strength that came from the Lord.
  • He gave glory to God as he believed.
  • He was fully convinced that God was able to do what He'd promised.
I was hoping to make some fun acronym out of that, but there doesn't seem to be one. I think the point is obvious, though--this describes the true kind of faith that God credits to us as righteousness. It's not how many projects we do in His name that saves us, or even how many people we talk to about the Lord, though these things are important as His children and representatives in the world. And we know that He doesn't put our deeds on a balance and weigh the good against the bad, as many today still believe. 

It's an unwavering, God-strengthened, glorifying, fully convinced belief in God's promises that makes us righteous in His sight. And because His greatest promise is that the blood of His Son, shed on the cross, cleanses all our sin (1 John 1:7), it's our belief and hope in that promise that makes us worthy to stand in His presence (Hebrews 6:19) and be called sons of God (Galatians 3:26). Amen!

Final Thoughts
I'm so happy to finally be a "New Dad". I knew what kind of challenges were in store for us in theory, but the realities are shocking and, at times, absolutely overwhelming. But so are the rewards. We are so grateful for all the prayers, gifts, and acts of service we have humbly received from our friends, family, neighbors, co-workers and more. Thank goodness for us everyone loves babies! Now we just have to do an incredible job raising them and we'll be all set.

I'm a New Dad!

Very proud mommy!
Abbey and Neavey were born yesterday and are already 25+ hours old! It was a long and somewhat complicated labor, but God came through for us, and everyone is doing ok.


Abbey was touch-and-go for the first few minutes of her life, and she's still recovering. We've shed some tears over that very real scare. We expect to be in the hospital until tomorrow, but we're not sure yet.


They're the most beautiful babies in the nursery, and we couldn't possibly be happier! Thanks for all the prayers!

The Big Announcement

It's official! Tara's being induced on Sunday, so we'll have Halloween babies unless they take a long time and are born on Monday. Thanks for all the prayers, kind thoughts and warm wishes!

Almost Baby Time!

The Haps
Not exactly the hilarious
picture Tara was going for,
but you get the idea.
Been pretty busy, as you can imagine!


 We were able to move into our house when we wanted to, and the buying process went very smoothly. I wasn't sure I wanted our brand new church friends to help us move, since we didn't know them and they didn't know us very well at all. But it went fine, and I'm very grateful to them all. Tara says they saved us around $500!


There was a guy getting into his storage unit as we were moving out of ours, and he gave me an organ! It's pretty cool. I think the amp inside it must be bigger than my little amps, because plugging it into my amp doesn't make it sound any more impressive at all. It's got a pretty great sound on its own.


I did my civic duty last week in the comfort of my own home. It was nice...I didn't know anything about the candidates for Supreme Court Justice in Ohio, so Tara helped me do some research while I voted. Now I don't have to worry about getting to a voting booth on Election Day when I may very well be stuck in a hospital! Now if I could just get Tara to complete her ballot before she goes into labor...


We're looking at that happening any day now. Tara even thinks there's a possibility they may induce her tomorrow! We really don't know.


Thoughts
I've been really stressed lately, with all the craziness of the last few months. Stress is not a normal part of my personality, and I don't think it suits me well at all. I truly believe that Tara is the only woman who could fit the role of my wife and support me as well as she does. I'm so thankful for her!


We held Christmas stockings a while ago that had "Mommy" and "Neave" stitched into them (the other two haven't arrived yet). What a moment that was. It's feeling more real every day. This is happening!


Today's Scripture
Romans 4:1-8 (NKJV)


Key verse: (5) "But to him who does not work but believes on Him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is accounted for righteousness..."


Reflection
"Faith alone, apart from works." This phrase sums up the greatest part of Paul's teachings in the New Testament. As he told the Galatians (2:16), "a man is not justified by the works of the law but by faith in Jesus Christ."


The way he words our key verse in Romans chapter 4, "to him who does not work...his faith is accounted for righteousness," seems to put him in conflict with James's teaching that "faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead" (James 2:17). But does it?


Did Paul think that we might as well rest from ministry since Jesus did all the work that was necessary on the cross? We can say an emphatic "no" for two good reasons: Both his example and his other letters said otherwise.


Paul told Titus (3:8), while speaking on this same subject, that "those who have believed in God should be careful to maintain good works." Why? "These things are good and profitable to men," he said. We can certainly see, in the Book of Acts and in most of Paul's letters, that he lived his life to glorify God and spread His message far and wide. While he didn't write much to encourage work by church members outside the church doors, he certainly taught by example.


In today's passage, Paul explains to new Jewish believers in Rome that what they had always thought about Abraham was not quite right. Jews and Muslims alike believe that God favored Abraham because he obeyed the Lord. Paul is saying that it was Abraham's belief, before he ever obeyed, that God accounted to him for righteousness. "For if Abraham was justified by works, he has something to boast about, but not before God" (Romans 4:2). Abraham relied totally on God's promises, not on his own good works. We know this because "he believed in the LORD, and He accounted it to him for righteousness" (Genesis 15:6).


You've surely heard the tired but still important question, "Why should someone who's gone to prison for [insert terrible crime here] be saved and go to heaven just because he said a prayer?" Paul's teachings about faith alone, without works, are not easy for everyone. Particularly for those who have continued to refuse God's Way, it's hard to understand how Jesus' sacrifice on the cross paid for every person's sin, no matter how bad. But for those of us who believe, what an incredible thing it is to be forgiven, chosen, included and adopted because of our faith in the cross!


It is clear throughout the Bible, however, that maintaining good works is "good and profitable to men". Just look at God's first covenant with His people, and their part of it, as spelled out by the Ten Commandments. After Christ's death and resurrection, Paul told the Ephesians (2:10) that we are "created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them." Good works is part of who we are as adopted sons and daughters. But they don't happen automatically; otherwise Jesus wouldn't have to say, "Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven" (Matthew 5:16).


How natural it should be for me to obey my Christ! He walks beside me even when I forget He's there. He communes with my inner man and intercedes with His Father on my behalf. He died on a cross and asks only that I believe in Him and love my fellow man, whom He loves (1 John 3:23). Why should anyone have to tell me to do the work of God? I want to do whatever pleases Him! May I ever seek it out.


"If you love Me, keep My commandments" (John 14:15).


Prayer
Lord Jesus, no matter how stressful life gets, and no matter how many arrows Satan fires at me, may I always delight in obeying your commands. They are good, and few would argue with that. Keeping them is "good and profitable to men". May my good works be evidence of a faith that is always alive in me and always hoping for all that You've promised, and may I "always be ready to give a defense to everyone who asks [me] for a reason for the hope that is in [me]" (1 Peter 3:15). In Jesus' name I pray.


Final Thoughts
Just a big thanks to everyone who has prayed and supported us in so many ways this year. I know you'll keep doing so long after our kids have arrived. I expect this will be my last post before I actually am a "New Dad". I couldn't be happier.

Still Here!

I haven't given up on this blog at all! But we haven't found our wireless modem yet, since the move, and my posts on this blog take a lot of time. I can't take time out of my office work to write those long posts, and at home I just don't have time.


We're still unpacking boxes and waiting for kiddos to arrive. We love our house and our new town, and we're making friends!


And I got an organ!


Hopefully I'll get around to writing a real post one of these days!